Thursday, 5 November 2015

The Only "She"



I saw her on a wedding while she was holding my friends hand and following his instruction knocking her head like his cute child. I, not only admired her but also observed her innocence and quietness. I witnessed a transmitting chemistry and bonding that she had with my friend, and that time my heart felt for her and that was the first day i visited her home. Frequent visits made me to interact with her closely which made a great feeling for her. 

Whenever she sees me visiting her home, she would smile at me first and run towards kitchen, to offer food for me. I directly follow her till kitchen, by not realizing it's someone's home.  She even bought a separate serving plate at her home for me, which I came to know later. I used to get melted, when she comes to me pointing her finger towards upwards and asking “oru small helpu”. 

And one day when i got married, I sensed the changes in her behavior with me as she forced herself to give me respect. Despite trying to change it many times, i failed. The kind of respect that she gave me was so annoying to me that she never use to lay down or sleep in front of me.

But then one day came, she threw away all those formalities which she was following and saw her lying on bed in deep sleep despite my presence refusing to see me, on her funeral L
And today, I wish she pay respect to me by waking up from sleep, get up with smile and walk towards the kitchen. It’s too late now as she was unwilling to throw her deep sleep for anyone, and not even for his beloved Son.

When anyone knock her doors even at midnight, she always offered food with delight. Those hands have been burned for that huge offense. Despite facing enormous pain, she always said I am fine with a huge smile and that heart was penalized to stop for being untruthful. A pure sole, who just, just and just lived for her family, never had any desires for her and always seen smiling despite making fun of her, was induced with a virus and fired for all of her sins (are these are really sin in present world to face such pain?)

Personalities with such characteristics will now remain as a history, as they aren’t often reborn usually. I feel feared that I still have to face such send-off’s in my life.

Should I feel sad for her loss, or feel glad that she had freed herself from all the pain that she faced. Should I keep thinking that she is no more or cherish with past memories letting it to be ON.                         
How much every you say, its not enough to substitute the loss of her.

She is irreplaceable and she’s my Mother in Law.

Rest in Peace atleast now, Radha. 

I definitely have no option now to demonstrate my affection to you, but ofcourse I can give those to your daughter and to the family, for whom you had always lived for.

I burn this letter to see if it can reach you and would assume the ashes as your acknowledgement.


Your’s Son

Karthic Naarayanan S B

Wednesday, 15 January 2014

Aanaaal...........


Andru enaku Pongal Thirunaal.
Pongal andru enaku ponga vaitha naal.
Pongal kondaadum velaiyil en seivathu endru thindadiya naal.

Kaalai ettarai Mani, Aluvalagathil kaaladi padhithaen.Prachanaiyum padhithathu.
Enadhu vaadikaiyalanin aluvalaga kozhaiyil thanneer varavillai...
Erukaiil amarndhu eru kaiyum pisangi irundhaen...
Ennai thavira oruvan illa ennudan vaelai parpavargal.
Vaadikaiyaalargal ennai vedikaiyaga paarthu kondirundhargal.
Irundhu vittu kazhuvamal vandhadhu pol oru yaelanamana parvai en mael.
Thaagathiruku yaengum Thani Maramaaga nindrirundhaen,
Thai thirunal enbathu kooda ninaivillam avan vaasitha jadhigalukku abinayam pidithu nindraen,
Kadangaaran sillaraiyai kooda vittuvaikaamal
Vasoolipathu pol, ennidam vaddiku vadikaetan.

Avan ennai vaanginaan,
Naan avanidam Vaanginaen.

Enathu nadathunarukku (Manager) andru udal nala kuraivu,...Jaladhoshamam
Avar jaladhoshathirku kaaranam kalai pani,
Enathu nilaiku kaaranam yaezharai Sani,
Udhaviyaalanaga sendraen, udhavikku.
oruvar kooda illamal nindraen.

Enna nadandhathu endru enadhu nadathunarin nadathunar kaetka.
Ullathai uraithaen, athu avanin nadathunarin kaadhirku ettiyathu.
Varuvaikae vazhi illathavan vaira nagaiku  vanga aasai pattathu pol,
naakku thonga nadathunargalai nokki vazhikaetu nindraen.
Aanal Nadandhu konde irundhargale thavira, nadavadikkai eduka padavillai.
Kadisiyil koodi paesi, neeyae paarthukol endru koori, nadandhe ponaargal.
Anaivarum saerdhu en meedhu vaasakaal nadathodanginar.

Pongal mudindhaalum ponga vaipathu mudivathillai.

Piragu enna ??
Paaliyal, thiruttu, balathkaaram,kolai, kollai
pondra anaithu vazhakugalum en mael pathivanadathu,
Mudhal kutravaaliyaaga en nadathunar karudhappattar,
Anaithu vazhakkugalukum avar porupaanar,
Irudhiyil Pathavi neengavum mudivaanar.
Pirugu thaan unardhaen, avaruku jaladhosham
vandhadhu paniyaal alla, saniyaal.
Enaku paatha sani, avarukku jenma sani.

Kuzhaiyilo thanneer innum varavillai, aanal
Vaadikaiyalargalukko ninaithadhu kidaithadhu.

"Enna vazhka da" endru ninaithirundhaen
Virakthiyil Veedadainthaen
Urchagamindri undaen,Uranginaen.

Andraiya thinam mudiveduthaen.
Podhumada karthi kenjiyathu, ini
minji paar, endra mudivukku vandhaen.
Enakul Aarambam, Baasha, veeram pondra thirai padangal odiyathu.
Maasala nediyo mookai thulaithathu,
Seri pothum endru nirunthi kondaen.

Maru naal kaalai veeru kondu ezhundhaen,
Enna thaan nadanthu vidum,  thunindhu vidada paarthukollalam ,
endru mudivu katti aluvalagam adainthaen.
Enathu irukaiyil amarndhaen,

Andraiya thinam enakku Maatu pongal.
Pongal kooda indrudan mudindhu vidum

Aanaaal...........

"Endru thaniyum indha sudhandhira Thaagam"

Karthic

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Atlast i may book it tomorrow

For the past one month i was very much in a confused state as i couldn't come to a conclusion to freeze on a bike to purchase.
As my Super Splender started to give many problems, thought to exchange it with a new one, but couldn't make a firm decision and Zero on any particular bike. Initially i first thought to go for Hero bikes, but the most sad part was other than super Splender i found no good bikes at 125cc. Few referred me to go for Passion Pro and  I was happy to go with the bike and there was no opposition from my family. Thinking that I would book passion pro next day, i was happy and had a good sleep. But next day morning, when I enquired at the show room, I came to know that it’s a 100 cc bike and it would take 2 months for delivery.  All my interest to the bike was lost as soon as I heard that it is a 100 cc.
When i thought to myself that what kind of bike i look for, below configurations came into my mind.
1. Good Mileage & Pickup
2. capable of touching atleast 80 to 90 km speed
3. Good Look
4. Less Maintenance
5. Descent  or less Price

Thinking whether I would get such a bike with all above conditions met, my inner thought asked me whether my expectation is too much like the below one ?
"Rendu paer Phone paesanum, 24 mani naeramum paesanum,Varsham poora paesanum, aana freeya paesanum,"
 Athuku nee naera thaan poi paesanum”
Above Sandhanam’s dialogue opened my eyes and thought to give up on point 3 & 5.
When I found that no bikes at Hero has got a impressive record,  I thought to go for Honda- Unicorn.  Though the mileage gives only 50 to 55kmpl, I heard that the bike was good for ride. I convinced by family members and thought to go for Unicorn. I was in a happy mood, thinking that next day I would book Honda and had a good sleep that night.
When I visited Honda showroom and enquired about Unicorn and I was stunned to hear that it would take 9 months for delivery. Was the bike that much worth it to wait till 9 months? I was not sure and thought to give it up. All my happiness lost in a minute.  I started to explore for other bikes at 125CC, the showroom guy was trying to draw my attention only on Twister 110cc. Though I was not interested on 100-CC, it made to turn back for a while for its look which looked as a Mini Stunner. I also tried enquiring with few more Honda showrooms; however everyone at showroom were trying to push me for Twister. I was really not aware of the background why they wanted to push more to sell Twister. I wantedly  gave less importance to it and looked for Shine-125cc, however few of the reviews stopped me going for it as there would be lot of vibrations when we increase the speed for more than 60Kms.
Keeping Honda a-side, I gave a look on Bajaj Products. But only 2 attracted me which is Pulsar and Discover. Though I was ready to go with any of the one, my heart voted more for Pulsar. However I haven’t got much response to Pulsar from my family. Also there were few talks like Bajaj doesn’t have resale value & Bajaj products may come with problems after 2 years, pulsar, discover are old models etc.  Somehow I made my family members to agree and I was in a happy mood thinking atlast I would book a pulsar tomorrow.
But the next day someone (mavane avan en kaila kedachaan) brainwashed my family members to go against bajaj products and and my Father was a major contributor in opposing Bajaj. (Ethanai Vazhigalada athil thaan ethanai kuzhigalada)
I was very much tired and fed up searching for a good one, and hence gave a thought to service my Super Splender and run it for few more years. Thinking that I would give my bike for service tomorrow, I slept that night.
 But something made me to think again on it that this is the second time I will have to rebore my engine and will that cause any trouble even after reboring ? Again re-opened the bike talks at my home and campaigned  for Pulsar a lot for one more time (like Naan Aatshikku Vandhaal……), highlighting that I won’t get back pain, good in look, descent price, less maintenance costs, won’t get problem for 5 year etc,etc,etc…And the end result I loss the deposit and I couldn’t fool my parents.
I was unable to make a decision and was very angry on all bike makers that these guys are not worth enough to manufacture one good 125cc bike.  But I couldn’t wait for a long time thinking what if the budget allotted for me to get a bike gets expired (varatshi karuthi nidhi thallubadi seiyappattuvidumo)???
I again visited Honda showroom and explored about Twister and read some reviews on the net. Most of the reviews were positive and it looked good too. The price was Rs 55,000 without Disc, and they agreed to take my Super splender for 14K which came to a total pay of Rs41,000. Not sure why from the beginning my Dad & my wife were in favour of Twister and when I suggested for it, I won the election and they immediately nodded their heads and gave their thumbs up.
Thinking that atlast I may book a Twister tomorrow, planning to have a good sleep tonight.  
Regards
Karthic Naarayanan S B

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

"Life is a cycle" : A warning Letter to my friend Reddy



This is in reply to my friend Reddy's Blog.


http://deviprasadareddy.blogspot.com/


I was forced to write this blog, to caution my friend and also to make him understand that “life is a cycle”.
As usual I thought to write my comments on Reddy’s blog, but published it in mine as the comments became huge and also to increase the TRP rating of my blog.


BTW Mr.Reddy, I enjoyed every single word of your blog, and wished to share my thougthts and inputs to you.
Coming to the TOPIC
(Ivanukulayum etho onnu irundhurukkku paren?)I can see the happiness and satisfaction in your writing that you are getting escaped from the situation.
But remember...still you are under warranty period and you are under observation, so you will be excused for your answers. But do not continue to answer like this.
Because after the warranty & guarantee periods are over, look below what will happen for your same answer.
Wife: The circles under my eyes are too dark, aren't they ?? (this question will be asked again purposely)
And if your answer is the same "I don't know if the circles are just dark or too dark, but they certainly seem tired with all the hard work you put in since early morning"
Then the reply will be (i am writing in tamil to make it more spicy, but u translate it in Telugu)
"hmmm..Enna panrathu.unga kooda kuppa kottinathukku indha dark circles thaan micham. Yaar irukka enakku help panrathukku veetla. Naane thaniya ella vaelaiyum seiyanum. Enga ammma veetla irukumbothu Rani maari irundhaen. Aana ippa, pakkathu veetuku pathu pathram theaika vara velakaari Rani maari aitaen. Enna Renuguntavulla kaetaaga, vijayawadavula kaetaaga, yaen Thelunganala kooda kaetaaga, angellam vittutu, en karagam inga vandhu maatikitaen. Ellam yaen thalai ezhuthu."
(Its not the end, still will continue)
Ungala solli kutham illa. Saerka seri irundhadhane ? Vandhu vaaichanungale, ungalukkunu friendsu (naangellam vera asinga paduvom)
Uyira vaanga Vaara vaaram US laendhu oru tharuthala phone pannum, avan US la irukaanu peethikarathukunae pannuvan. Namma thaniya irukaratha kedukanumdrathula avanukku apdi enna than sandhoshamo. (Sivaraman: neenga than). Aethu da adikadi phonela iva sonnathe solli solli disturb panraale, namma phonea vekkanumndra arivu vaendam ? Us la kooda ellarum soru thane thimbaanga ?
Inooruthan irukaane, Oosila soru podraanganna podhum, udane thatta thookikittu  anga poiduvaan(Naane than). Avanga veetla avanukku soru podrangala illiya ?Atleast  Konjamaavavathu thinnu tholaiyudha ? Avan mattum namma veetuku saapda varaenu sollatume, mavane sothula vesham vechi konnudraen. (But Reddy, tell her that I won’t be afraid for all these)
Baaki irukra rendu pasanga unga kitta kadan vaanginanungale, kudupanungala maataanungala ?MSK, kittaendhu varave varaathunu nallave therinji pochu.
Indha Mahesh babu ku enna kaedam, maasam 2 lakhs sambaathikiraan la,.. adutha tharava avanga rendu perum Hello Mr.reddy (in weird tone) nu varattum naaka pudungara maari kaekaraen.
Neenga vaazhkailiyae panna romba periya nalla kaariyam, indha Narayananukku kadan kudukaathathu than.MSk kadanaiyaavathu vaara varam avan veettuku poi thinnavathu theekalam..aana ivan (naan than), thingarathukunae perungalathur laendhu Annanur varaikum varuthu, Saniyan…Enna jenmamo ?
(Ithula escape na Ragu & Rajesh thaan.)
Now hope you understood the implication of your answer. Just because of your single wrong answer, we all will get screwed up. So don’t ever give any chance and be happy with your reply. You need to think innovative for the questions asked to you.
Now don’t think all the above stuff is based on my personnel experience. Because anticipating all these, i would be very careful even while appreciating.
So don’t be happy that you got escaped as still there is a long way to go.

All the best
SBK

Friday, 23 September 2011

A Letter to MSK

This is in reply to MSK’s blog “Something is missing – Part 2”
First I thought of posting my comments in his column,  but my writing has become too huge to leave my foot prints on his blog. Hence gave a thought to circulate it in my own publication thinking even I need to key in something in my blog, as the purpose does not solve if I don’t write down anything here.

Now coming to the topic.
As usual i have got something to say on this.
Man is not the creator of the world, because he never created it.  Instead we could say he is a modifier. And i oppose the statement that "Man is a part of Nature", instead we could call him as a Natural destroyer or a selfish creature. He destroyed many other creatures for his own existence. He destroys forest, he kills animals- some for food, and some for pleasure by naming it as "Hobby".
Motor revolution, telecom,and medical sciences pointed by you, does not belong to a category of nature. Hence it could be said that Man is a creator of science and science is an enemy to the nature because every new scientific innovations are created by destroying any form of nature.
(If you go in depth) Even if you have a good thinking of making a school and provide education to others, you are trying to do a favor to your own family (which is human family) by cutting down the other species  or living things like trees, etc to make your family grow up to the next level. Hence still humans are selfish and they can be no way called as a part of nature. So all you talk about living for our own (Human being) family and not about living for others.
Since humans came from Adam and eve family, I believed that everybody belongs to a same community. And since everybody cannot take care of every individual, a individual community or family has to be created by sub dividing into many pieces or particles to take care of the living beings. It’s like in my office everybody work for HCL, but we are subdivided in to departments to take care of specifically our team which doesn't mean that i am working only for my department. If you feel that other teams are not performing better, we can just help them from outside by extending our hands to them, but we cannot involve or get in to it completely as we have got to take care of our team, where our team mates are expecting our presence and dedicated support to them. So to achieve what you say, either you should be an HR to get deeply into the employees problem and resolve it or a CEO / Chaiman who has got authority, money, power & rights and  does not have to depend on others to make or break decisions. Being in our level,achieving our KRA and runing day to day operation is very important, only then Value adds comes into the picture.
When you dont even have enough bandwidth to run your day to day operations , then Value add becomes a question mark. Even if you provide the value adding ideas, he does not have the authority or power to implement this as he cant implement those from his level.
I am not sure whether this example is the right one, but this is what has striked me when i thought of it.
Though i keep arguing on such things, i have always admired you and keep telling my surroundings about your service to Gurukulam, which needs a stand able applause for your special care to the society by taking social responsibilities. I do involve myself  to some extent in providing some fund  to a social institution atleast once in 6 months, but it cannot match your service which you do for Gurukulam.
But thinking beyond this is too much for our limits is what my argument is.


Coming to your below statement
"I know some of us will start arguing that practically it is not possible and blah blah blah… Moreover it is the fact that it is not practically possible for the kind of people who is visualizing his small world, small family with small hearts like us. But if we think from our inner heart it will say, yes it could be possible. Thinking from the inner heart is what is “SOMETHING MISSING”.

We had the same conversation some years before, and i heard the same writings in a form of a speech, but i haven’t seen any progress on building a school or providing free education etc , after the meeting. Even i remember you had planned of visiting a village area (near to Salem if i remember correctly) for a site survey. You were really thinking off doing it from your inner heart, right? And what prevented you from achieving it ?
So just thinking from inner heart is not sufficient enough to achieve this milestone. It needs lot of sacrifices and it is not attainable when the family is on our shoulders and without our family support. So I again stress that it is a "Blah Blah" -  which means practically not possible.
I would have accepted my argument to be a "Blah, blah" if you could have achieved something by this times of what you said on Hotel Anjappar.  As nobody has taken efforts to prove me wrong, iam still on my same stands and will still continue to sound in a high pitch in preaching my "blah blah". I can just agree on the sentence spelled by you with slight changes "We can work on so many things that society requires our attention WHICH EVER IS POSSIBLE BASED ON INDIVIDUALS STRENGTH  AND POSSIBILITY".
My argument is not against in servicing to the living beings or taking social responsibilities, instead I oppose the statement like building schools, giving free education to villages etc which are not possible from our level who comes from family back ground.  I can appreciate if it is a dream of a person to build schools, but to me it sounds like a “Blah Blah” if a person says that it is possible if he can just think from inner heart and it is achievable by working on it in a part time.
I respect, raise hand and support your “something missing - heart” but not those unrealistic way’s which cannot be attained by a ordinary family man.



All my saying is "Be practical on what we are planning to achieve so that it doesn’t prick us".
SBK


Wednesday, 10 August 2011

Will India handover 4-0 ?


It is a worst time for India where even the 3rd test is resulting in favour of England and i am anticipating a clean sweep by England making it to 4-0. Inspite of experienced players by our side, except Dravid no one has made an impact in this series. And the worst part is we are giving it to England with cool hands.

I couldn't find any fight back from Indian team which clearly denotes that all 10 player are completely out of form and found to be in terrific aggression in handing over the series to England. Broad was supposed to be dropped from the England squad due to his poor form, but Indians showed mercy on him and gave back a new life to him.

Though there has been few talks that Zaheer's absence is stopping India's victory, i failed to understand that is that the one man who is gonna turn out the complete result and is that Indian bowling attack is depended on a single bowler? Also i am quite not sure why Sreeshanth on 3rd test when england travelled his bowling attack very easily with their bat on the previous match. There was a very big expectation from Sehwag today (who joined the 3rd test after the recovery from his injury) and that worked in favour of England. By earning a half century in the first innings Dhoni saved his captain's hat with his bat. The future Indian test cricket team is in big trouble as our BCCI is manufacturing large number of 20-20 cricketers rather than molding the players in Test Cricket.

Though i am not very much gratified with the way the series proceeds, i do not want to critisize on India or Dhoni's performance considering the previous histories as he is one of the most successful captain and he is yet to loose a test series. May be he is experimenting it in England on how the feel would be in loosing a test series.

But i would expect India to loose the game with a little bit fight in the field or at the least a 100th ton by Sachin in England soil could be an ointment to the wounded Indian Fans.

What say guys ? Does it make sense ?

Regards
Karthic Naarayanan  S B

Thursday, 4 August 2011

நான் மொழி பெயர்த்த பாடல்


One of the song in hindi which i would listen often is from the film "Saagar". It drove me crazy to the extent which made me to write lyrics for the tune in tamil. As this is the place i can do what ever i want to, no one can stop me doing it, dont forget i am the owner of this blog :)

"चेहरा है या चांद किला है ज़ुल्फ़ गनेरी श्याम है क्या,
सागर जैसी आंकों वाली ये थो बता तेरा नाम है क्या"

மல்லிகை பூவோ மஞ்சள் நிலாவோ
மங்கை உந்தன் மேனியோ
வெண்ணிற ஆடையில் வெள்ளி மின்னலோ
பெண்ணே உந்தன் பெயர் என்னவோ.

அடி உனக்கென்ன தெரியும் நான் படும் பாடு
சூரியன் கேட்டால் கலங்கிடுமே
உன்னை காண மேகத்தில் மிதந்து
நிலவும் கூட வலம் வருமே

கண்ணங்கள் இரண்டும் கட்டி தங்கமோ
கூந்தல் வானவில் வண்ணமோ
வெண்ணிற ஆடையில் வெள்ளி மின்னலோ
பெண்ணே உந்தன் பெயர் என்னவோ


வான்நிலவில் வால் நட்ஷத்திரங்கள்
விண்ணிலிருந்து விரைகிறதே
உன்முகம் காண வீட்டு வாசலில்
வரிசையில்  நின்று கிடக்கிறதே

படைத்தவன் பூமிக்கு பரந்திடுவானோ
உன்னை தன்னுடன் வரச்சொல்லி அழைப்பானோ
அவனை வென்றிட முயலுகிறேன் நான்
எனக்கொரு உதவி செய்வாயோ !!
 
"चेहरा है या चांद किला है ज़ुल्फ़ गनेरी श्याम है क्या,
सागर जैसी आंकों वाली ये थो बता तेरा नाम है क्या"