I saw her on a wedding while she was
holding my friends hand and following his instruction knocking her head like
his cute child. I, not only admired her but also observed her innocence and
quietness. I witnessed a transmitting chemistry and bonding that she had with
my friend, and that time my heart felt for her and that was the first day i visited
her home. Frequent visits made me to interact with her closely which made a
great feeling for her.
Whenever she sees me visiting her home, she would smile
at me first and run towards kitchen, to offer food for me. I directly follow
her till kitchen, by not realizing it's someone's home. She even bought a separate serving plate at
her home for me, which I came to know later. I used to get melted, when she
comes to me pointing her finger towards upwards and asking “oru small helpu”.
And one day when i got married, I sensed
the changes in her behavior with me as she forced herself to give me respect.
Despite trying to change it many times, i failed. The kind of respect that she
gave me was so annoying to me that she never use to lay down or sleep in front
of me.
But then one day came, she threw away all
those formalities which she was following and saw her lying on bed in deep
sleep despite my presence refusing to see me, on her funeral L
And today, I wish she pay respect to me by waking
up from sleep, get up with smile and walk towards the kitchen. It’s too late
now as she was unwilling to throw her deep sleep for anyone, and not even for
his beloved Son.
When anyone knock her doors even at
midnight, she always offered food with delight. Those hands have been burned
for that huge offense. Despite facing enormous pain, she always said I am fine
with a huge smile and that heart was penalized to stop for being untruthful. A
pure sole, who just, just and just lived for her family, never had any desires
for her and always seen smiling despite making fun of her, was induced with a
virus and fired for all of her sins (are these are really sin in present world
to face such pain?)
Personalities with such characteristics
will now remain as a history, as they aren’t often reborn usually. I feel
feared that I still have to face such send-off’s in my life.
Should I feel sad for her loss, or feel glad
that she had freed herself from all the pain that she faced. Should I keep thinking
that she is no more or cherish with past memories letting it to be ON.
How much every you say, its not enough to
substitute the loss of her.
She is irreplaceable and she’s my Mother in
Law.
Rest in Peace atleast now, Radha.
I
definitely have no option now to demonstrate my affection to you, but ofcourse
I can give those to your daughter and to the family, for whom you had always
lived for.
I burn this letter to see if it can reach
you and would assume the ashes as your acknowledgement.
Your’s
Son
Karthic
Naarayanan S B
